This one hits hard. When you’ve done everything that should make you feel better and you can feel it coming back on you, creeping up and waiting to pounce. When it does you’re just left sitting and thinking ‘ I did everything right’
This represents the part of depression where you slowly lose interest in everything and anything that used to bring you even the slightest bit of joy pretty well.
Mental illnesses weave their way into every aspect of your life, you won’t even recognize who you are anymore. You’ll be a shell of the person you used to be, your old happy, hopeful, enthusiastic self is most likely gone and replaced with something you won’t want to face.
It’ll creep up on you when you finally think it’s gone. Crashing like a wave, drowning you. Rising up like a tornado, throwing you around, you think you’ll never escape.
mental illnesses are hard to describe because they’re never the same for two different people.
Thank you, Olivia Young.
Not everyone needs a warm blanket that couldn’t hold on a cold night not like what you think.
There are winters, where some need woods to afire the night to keep warm and there are some which are still hot as summer. May all the names are the same but they ain’t as it supposed to be.
You can’t knock everyone’s door and start asking for things they don’t have. Like this, you can’t say things to people with mental illness even if you think good of them.
You can’t tell them that it’ll be fine one day: everything going to be fine and you’ll be fine.
You haven’t seen strom in the ocean, its mercyless flow. A huge wave can carry tons of loads miles away, just in a glimpse of it. Hitting you hard enough to get drown each time, you try hard to breathe.
Your body becomes weightless into that storm shallowing you, tiredness arms trying to get a hold on the surface but your poor leg been dragged deeper into the ocean and your stomach turned down because of the wave carrying to countless motion.
You hardly manage to open your eyes. How can you tell them it’ll be fine, in this endless flow. How can you say everything going to be fine when not even God can tell it. Not even these ships captain who travel frequently.
You can’t tell them that it’ll end soon, just hang in there.
Into this edgeless ocean more than anyone, they know how long they have been hanging in there. How many times they surf and drown in it. Countless… Countless of it.
One moment they’re fine then other moment it starts all over again. Day and night, they fight with all of it. They surf into that waves dodging the storm, they float on that ocean, they stood there, whole time just trying to breathe and they breathe…
They don’t need your words because they have been doing this way before you even thought of it and it never seems to be comforting at all, not there not now. They know, they are lost into this outrageous ocean and they may never find the way out. Their surfs, dodges and drowning have been volunteering adapted by now.
So, when there is nothing that seems to happen they are floating on the ocean a bit alive and a bit lifeless.
You don’t need to say anything if you are not sure of whether it will comfort them or aggravate them.
Just be with them, hear their breath.
Feel them, silently.
Because it just happens.
𝙰𝚜 𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐 𝚊𝚜 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚕𝚒𝚟𝚎,
𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎’𝚜 𝚊𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚠𝚊𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐; 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗 𝚒𝚏 𝚒𝚝’𝚜 𝚋𝚊𝚍, 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚔𝚗𝚘𝚠 𝚒𝚝’𝚜 𝚋𝚊𝚍, 𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚍𝚘? 𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝚌𝚊𝚗’𝚝 𝚜𝚝𝚘𝚙 𝚕𝚒𝚟𝚒𝚗𝚐. (𝚃𝚛𝚞𝚖𝚊𝚗 𝙲𝚊𝚙𝚘𝚝𝚎)
Don’t Isolate: Unfortunately, this is what many people with depression do. They don’t answer phone calls, they don’t open their mail. When people try to beat depression by isolating themselves, the inevitably fail.
Don’t Self-Medicate: When person turn to drugs or alcohol to improve his mood is called self-medication. The drugs or alcohol will lifted your mood but it will only work in the short run.
Don’t Make Any Big Decision: Depression blocks and hinders the decision-making process thus if you’r depressed don’t get married or divorced, don’t quit a job & don’t buy or sell the house.
Don’t ask yourself the question “When Will This End?”: It’s wrong to question to ask yourself because you don’t know when a depressive episode will end. It will just increase your depression. But you can simply live one day at a time instead of thinking to living long-term.
Stop feeling Guilty: You feel guilty because you’re not being their son, daughter or friend that you think they wish they had.
It’s Ok, to not be Ok.
By Dr. Paul Kernan
Why it feels like we don’t know each other anymore.
Is that you who forgot me or is that me who lost you. Probably it is me, I keep you apart while I was going through things and didn’t know I was hurting you too while I was hurting myself.
It is me who made this and now it is so weird that both walk in the different road and everything we have between seems so unfamiliar.
What about that night we keep awake talking about the universe what about those days we laughed on the road making everyone eyes on us.
What happened to our friendship.
I was trembling in my own way that I couldn’t tell you and now it feels so dizzy when we are not doing these kinds at all.
The conversation you shortened and saying our taste is different, it hurts.
You don’t nag me like before anymore you don’t yell at me for my overthinking and ignorance, you don’t.
I think you are tired and you are right, we don’t have any common at all. You are in your own and maybe I should too.
Because the world we created was erasable, how could we forget that?
Things I said, you keep misleading it and ends up distinguishing between us. Although it hurts maybe it is time that I let it go because I won’t find someone like you and you deserve good friends apart from me.
This friendship ends like the winter season and now I got to prepare for the rest. I wonder would we ever head to the same road again or meet at the end and even if it doesn’t am glad that I met you.
This friendship leads me to my utopia already.
I can’t greed for it now.
Wishing you a happy life ahead
I really thought that I could go through with it because I’ve done such a great job in pretending so many times before.
But there are some people when you see them, you just can’t pretend anymore because they know you. The real you.
And maybe that’s why you avoided seeing them for so long. Uh… I am not perfect. I do not have it all.
In fact, my life is all kinds of screwed up.
Every group of friends has that one experience that no matter where you are you carry it with you for life.
We’re a little older, a little wiser, and we’re still the baddest chicks in the game I don’t know what the future will bring to, love or heartbreak, joy or pain, but right now, it’s bright.
And the one thing I know for sure is my girls will be there, no matter who else steps in the picture, my girls are my constant.
They gave me permission to be who I am and I am going to be me, we’re doing to be us, loving, laughing, worthy magical us.
Life is just a little difficult for people who feel too much, people who overshare, people who are honest in their hearts, and people who speak without a filter. It’s not your fault. Give all of this a little time. It should all be fine, one day.
It’s 1 am. You are trying to sleep but then you can’t. Your mind goes back to the conversation you had with your friend 3 days ago. You said something and now, you are wondering if he felt bad because of that. He even replied with an “I get it. :)” he never uses that emoji. You are wondering if you messed up.
You write the text. you backspace. you write, you backspace. You keep doing this till you are sure if you actually want to send that message. Your mind keeps going back to situations. You stare at the screen for 5 minutes before calling anyone. You think everything between ‘they’d be at work’ to ‘it’d seem like I am bothering them.’
A side-effect of overthinking is that you also become very sensitive. You notice the smallest changes in someone’s behavior. They way they talk, text, or smile. You notice things which you shouldn’t. and it ends up bothering you even more. You are almost always worried about something or the other.
You will forget to wear your mask once, and then you will spend the next 4 days worrying if you got infected and if it’s something important you double or triple check if you did it right. Your mind is like a maze and you don’t see any way out of it. You keep going in different directions. You keep making up scenarios in your head.
Then next thing you will know is that it’s 4 am. What started us thinking about a text message, ended with severe life questions.
You feel restless. and the worst part about overthinking is, people, dismiss it by saying, “you think too much.” You just hope they knew that overthinking isn’t a car that you can simply pull the break.
It’s like an astronaut floating in space – you keep floating until you find something that’s worth holding on to.
By Warda Singh from the scribbled stories.
𝕄𝕒𝕪𝕓𝕖 𝕥𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖’𝕤 𝕤𝕠𝕞𝕖𝕥𝕙𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕪𝕠𝕦’𝕣𝕖 𝕒𝕗𝕣𝕒𝕚𝕕 𝕥𝕠 𝕤𝕒𝕪, 𝕠𝕣 𝕤𝕠𝕞𝕖𝕠𝕟𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦’𝕣𝕖 𝕒𝕗𝕣𝕒𝕚𝕕 𝕥𝕠 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖, 𝕠𝕣 𝕤𝕠𝕞𝕖𝕨𝕙𝕖𝕣𝕖 𝕪𝕠𝕦’𝕣𝕖 𝕒𝕗𝕣𝕒𝕚𝕕 𝕥𝕠 𝕘𝕠. 𝕀𝕥’𝕤 𝕘𝕠𝕟𝕟𝕒 𝕙𝕦𝕣𝕥. 𝕀𝕥’𝕤 𝕘𝕠𝕟𝕟𝕒 𝕙𝕦𝕣𝕥 𝕓𝕖𝕔𝕒𝕦𝕤𝕖 𝕚𝕥 𝕞𝕒𝕥𝕥𝕖𝕣𝕤.
— 𝕁𝕠𝕙𝕟 𝔾𝕣𝕖𝕖𝕟